Monday, 30 November 2015

A Short List of Happy Things

    The interview went really good today! I went in feeling positive, and the interviewer was super friendly and nice! I really enjoyed it. She told me that she would let me know by the end of the week.
     Hoping everything goes good!
     Anyway, on to the rest of the blog post!
    Today I will publishing a list of things that have made me happy this past month, because this month has thrown a lot of hits my way and I want to look back at the good!

  1. putting extra time into my writing
  2. dedicated time for my vlog and other filming pursuits 
  3. time for introspection (which is both positive and negative, but only positives)
  4. making new ace friends
  5. writing a post that meant so much to so many people
  6. binge-watching Jessica Jones
  7. binge-watching Master of None
  8. reading Ready Player One and Armada for the first time
  9. starting on my memoir
  10. finishing my solo campaign on Borderlands 2 (first time taking the Warrior out solo)
  11. playing through Halo 5: Guardians (great game btw, solid story)
  12. the warm start to winter
  13. midnight cupcakes
  14. started working out again
  15. time for recharging 
     I know this list seems short, but a lot of the things on it are pretty big, or took up a significant portion of time!
    This has been a short list of things that made me happy. 

Sunday, 29 November 2015

The Importance of Star Trek

     I forgot to post yesterday... oops. Sorry about that, I just kept getting sidetracked by things. Mainly Star Wars. I mean, very professional, adult things. Yup, not Star Wars at all.
     ahem
     It`s no excuse, I know. I`m very sorry. 
     Anyways, because I started this off with Star Wars I`m going to talk about Star Trek in this blog. Logic! Don`t question my logic, I`m pretty much a Vulcan, so I know more about logic than you. Unless you`re an actual Vulcan... In which case, please message me so we can hang out in space and stuff. 
     Star Trek is very important to our culture and to the modern age. But Zak, you interrupt rudely, it was just a tv show! How is it important?
     Well, ignorant fool, it was a whole franchise of TV shows, 5 live-action with a sixth being worked on, and 12 movies with the 13th coming out next summer. So, not just a tv show. Gosh. Star Trek inspired generations of scientists, philosophers, and politicians. Cellphones were invited because people wanted the communicators from The Original Series. The Next Generation inspired laptops and tablets. Deep Space Nine explored the the human psyche on levels most television would have never dared to!
     One of the most culturally significant aspects of Star Trek comes from The Original Series. It was a show, that during the height of race riots and the Cold War, featured a black woman and Russian man as main characters. Not just main characters either, officers who held crucial positions on the flagship for Earth`s fleet. Uhura became an icon. Young Black girls in the 1960`s got to watch a series every week that showed them that they could do whatever they wanted. Uhura and Chekov showed a future where race didn`t matter because we were all human. 
      One of the most significant, and radical things Star Trek did, was to showcase the first, the very first, inter-racial kiss on television. For the first time in television history, a white man was shown kissing a black woman. It was revolutionary! And ridiculously controversial. 
      And Star Trek stayed controversial. It touched on subjects like same-sex relationships, poly-amorous relationships, racism, xenophobia, PTSD, consequences of war, torture, and so many more. They never did for publicity, all the things came up through clear and consistent story-telling, and were always done with grace.   
       There`s a section of my memoir dedicated to Star Trek where I go in-depth into the personal significance it holds. I love Star Trek. And I will say that it is the most important piece of pop culture ever produced until I fall into my grave. 
      That`s it for today. Tomorrow I have an interview with the longest running film festival in North America, so the tone of tomorrow`s blog will probably hinge on that... 
       

Friday, 27 November 2015

Dear Islamophobes,

     I woke up really happy today. I'm not one hundred percent sure why, but I think it may have had to do with yesterday. Yesterday was just an awesome day! I got to know some awesome people. It was simply amazing, and the feeling of euphoria carried over to today.      
          That said, I saw one of the most ignorant and Islamophobic things today. Like, I was disgusted. And it was posted by someone I used to have a lot of respect for! The post contained a video, and the following text: To those that say I am posting "hate" on my wall...please take 4 mins and listen and WATCH this video. Its not just the extremists with these barbaric views, its the entire religion!! If you still disagree after watching this, you are simply ignorant. These are the same people we are welcoming to our country right now. There is NO peace in Islam. Period. This video proves it.              You know you're off to a great start when the person posting it calls it "hate".       
       The video shows a group of incredibly conservative Muslims discussing the very conservative parts of Islam: the separation of men and women during worship, etc.. Basically the same kind of thing that super conservative Christians would be talking about. And one of the main things people were getting from this video was that all the people in the audience were agreeing! Two things about that:
1.     herd mentality. When you're part of a large group you're going to agree with what's going on, or you're not going to try to stop it at the very least. I've experienced it at Christian events, concerts, and the movie theatre
2.     THEY WERE A CROWD OF ULTRA CONSERVATIVE PEOPLE. And if I know anything, I know that any group of ultra conservative men will agree that women should be kept separate. Because ultra conservatism = sexism. 
I realize that basic logic and common sense is beyond some people, and that's a damn shame. But honestly. We need some sort of buffers for this kind of idiocy. Ugh.      
      I commented on the post, because of course I did. All I said was this: "Have you read the Koran? I have. Their religion is ridiculously more peaceful than Christianity. But, go ahead. Call me ignorant." Honestly, that's pretty tame for me. Must have been because of my good mood.
      Of course when the next person commented and went on a tirade about all of the atrocities Islamic people have committed throughout all of history. Way to stay relevant. So I may have replied to his comment... with an extremely sarcastic list of atrocities that I was sure glad white Christians had never committed. Like genocide. And slavery.       
        I didn't hold back that time...       
       What confounds me the most, is how do these people not realize that all the hate they're spreading is doing the terrorists' job for them? How can you be this blind? Not you specifically. Probably no one reading this...
       The sad part is that I realize these people (most/some) aren't being racist out of hate, but rather ignorance and fear. That's honestly so sad.
       I think what I'm trying to say is: Fuck Islamophobia. To any Muslim brothers and sisters reading this, As-salamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu. Peace be on all my siblings. We are all Children of this Earth. We should all love each other. 

Thursday, 26 November 2015

Ace Day

      Today, November 26th, is Ace Day. And it is a beautiful, wondrous day! I have loved every minute of it! Seeing all of the tweets, all of the selfies on instagram, and all of the posts on tumblr and facebook! It's been fantastic! Days like this are so important! For so many reasons! Let's list those reasons:

  1. Asexuality is all but ignored by most forms of media
  2. Young people are wandering around not knowing about it thinking they're broken
  3. Asexual characters are treated as jokes who need to be fixed 
  4. Asexuality in general is a joke to the many people who thought homosexuality was funny
  5. Days like this allow aces to shine in all their magnificent glory
  6. It allows people to connect with like individuals all over the globe
  7. And mostly, because it gives people confidence to be themselves
People feel safe on days like this because they see countless others going out of their way to celebrate themselves! And it is absolutely beautiful.
       Days like this give people back their hope. Days like this give people strength to carry on. Days like this make people proud to be who they are. I love this community. I love the people in it. I love the things that the people in it have accomplished. And the thing I love most? How much everyone loves each other within it.
      I feel good whenever I talk to someone within the ace community. I feel a kinship and trust with everyone in it, even if I've never talked to them before. That's an incredible feeling. I've honestly never felt more apart of something than I do now. The feeling of inclusion I had within the church pales in comparison.
      I love who I am. I love what I am. And I never would've gotten to this point if it wasn't for this community.
      Gods above, I love you guys. Everyday. Not just today. You guys, each and every one of you, are my family. And I really do love you.
      Lets rock this thing. 

Wednesday, 25 November 2015

Sarcastic AF

       Alright, alright, I'll start writing.
       Hey, how's life treating you today?
      That's a terrible way to start a blog, sounds like a fricking email.
      Technology mildly worked for me today. YouTube froze a bunch while uploading, but it only made it take like an hour extra. And I was able to get a bunch of other stuff done as well! Yay for productivity! I'm looking at ways to promote my content on the cheap (read: free), and in that vein, I have started an official tumblr page for my vlog!!! YAY! Wow. Chill out caps lock McGee. You can find my page at: zakitudevlogs.tumblr.com. Yet another way I'm giving you to find and watch my videos with having to go to the dreaded YouTube.
      I've been told sarcasm isn't an attractive trait. But what do those people know? They haven't even looked in a mirror lately. I mean, come on, people in glass houses.
       I think that's the meanest I've been in one of these... I must be tired. (hint: I am) I apologize to any of the sarcastically impaired people whom I may have offended with my comment.
      But seriously, just because you don't understand a sarcastic comment doesn't mean you need to broadcast your ignorance.
       Down boy. Be nice.
      Hello. This has been blogging with a tired Zak. Please go and follow his YouTube channel for content when he isn't falling asleep at keyboards: youtube.com/user/shran100. Like his page on Facebook: facebook.com/zakitudevlogs. Join his group for Canadian Asexuals: facebook.com/canadianaces. And follow him on tumblr where he reblogs scarves: zakitudevlogs.tumblr.com

ugh

     Technology has conspired against me today. Namely the internet, but my phone joined in too but not staying charged. My WiFi has been absolutely terrible. It is currently 7-8 hours after my vlog is usually up, and its currently frozen at 50%. Nine hours to get to 50%! That's absolutely ridiculous! And because YouTube was eating up all my bandwidth, I haven't been able to get this done either!
      Ugh. I'm afraid today's blog is going to be super short mainly because I am mega irritated with technology. I had a post planned for today! But, that's going to be pushed back until tomorrow now... Hopefully everything goes according to plan tomorrow at least.
     That's it. This is today's blog. Enjoy. 

Monday, 23 November 2015

The Doctor's Faults

***MAJOR DOCTOR WHO SPOILERS***

       So, that happened on Saturday. I knew it was coming, we've all known that it was coming for a while, so it wasn't too shocking. I think the most emotional part of Clara's death was the Doctor's reaction. And Me's realization of what she had inadvertently done. That said, the Doctor was directly responsible for Clara's demise.
     How could I say that, you ask? Let's take a look.
     First off, let's talk about Ashildr. Remember her from way back like five episodes ago? She was the innocent young viking girl with the vivid imagination, whose story telling saved her village. Unfortunately she died doing this. The Doctor, racked with guilt after Clara told him to feel that way, took a med-kit from one of the deceased aliens and brought her back to life. This med-kit had some side-effects, the main one being that it made her immortal. The episode ends with a beautifully sad shot of her standing by herself as time moves around her, leaving her unchanged. When the Doctor sees her next, a mere 800 years later, she is living the life of a highwayman, robbing from the rich and keeping for herself. We learn that she barely remembers her name and has taken to calling herself Lady Me. She tells the Doctor that while she may be immortal, she still has a normal memory span. She shows the Doctor her library, filled with hundreds of journals that she has written to remember what she's done. The Doctor reads these journals and learns that during her 800 years she has lived through and taken part in almost all the major events during those times, and even had children. Children that she lost to the Plague. A bunch of events happen, and at the end of it the Doctor and Ashildr part as people working toward the same goal differently. The Doctor is out to save the planet, and Ashildr is out to save the planet from the Doctor. They aren't enemies, but they are far from friends. When we finally saw Ashildr again on Saturday, she had radically changed once again. But I'll get to that later.

       Now for the Doctor. Twelve is a very different Doctor, especially from the more recent ones. He's callous and harsh, he doesn't know how to be nice to people, and he doesn't really care. Clara has slowly been making him care: "She's my care-er. She cares so I don't have" all the way to making him flash cards on how to be nice. Twelve has gotten more "human" since his first episode. Remember it? With the ambiguous ending of did he push the cyborg or talk it into committing suicide? He learned to care about Clara fairly quickly, and he's needed her to make him care about other people. The Doctor has always been confidant, but Twelve has taken the levels of cockiness to new extremes. He knows that he is going to win because he always has. And his fake it until an actual plan forms method has been rubbing off on Clara this whole time. We've seen the Doctor become like his companions, and we've seen his companions become like the Doctor, but never this negatively before. Twelve is calm and methodical, and very often doesn't seem to care when people die, so long as Clara survives. We've seen countless people die and the Doctor not hesitate until Clara is in danger. Clara isn't/wasn't his weakness, she was his humanity. A humanity that was somehow lost in between Eleven and Twelve. This hasn't been fully explained, but I believe it has something to do with the new set of regenerations Eleven received at Trenzalore. 
       And finally, Clara. Clara started off as a mystery for Eleven to solve, who then stuck around after the mystery was solved. She floundered as a companion for a bit after this, probably because the writers hadn't bothered with giving her dimensions beyond "she's a mystery!", but after a few episodes with Twelve, she began to actually have a character and a purpose. She began to teach the Doctor how to care again, she began to slowly give him back his humanity. In process of this, she began to lose her own. She started to become more and more like the Doctor. She got his cocky attitude, and negligence towards other people (in a small way). She even pretended, very convincingly to be the Doctor on several occasions. Even convincing Cybermen that she was the Doctor at one point! We've seen her take more and more risks, all the while calling them clever plans. Which culminated in Face the Raven, when she convinced Rigsy to give her his death sentence because Ashildr (Mayor Me) had given Clara her personal guarantee that nothing would happen to her. Not knowing the full details of Ashildr's abilites, or the deals that Ashildr had made, Clara thought this was exceedingly clever. Something she repeatedly told Rigsy, who still thought it was a bad idea. 
        Should've listened to Rigsy. 
        The Doctor figures out that Ashildr is working for someone, proves Rigsy was innocent, and should've won the day! Only to find out that Clara had taken the death sentence. Ashildr admits that her personal guarantee of protection won't work with this because of deals that she has made, and that there is nothing she can do to save Clara. There's nothing the Doctor can do either. He threatens Ashildr, threatens to rain hell down upon what she has built up. Clara stops him mid-threat, telling him that he would stop the instant he heard a baby crying. She then tells the Doctor to not seek revenge, to get on with his life and to not stay alone, because he can't handle that (he really can't, which we have seen numerous times). She says good bye, and goes into the street to await death, while the Doctor watches from the doorway.
         This is, of course, all the Doctor's fault. He gave Ashildr immortality then left her for 800 years, without a thought of the consequence to his actions. He forced Clara into situations that made her think like him. He runs in, fixes problems, and then doesn't stick around to deal with the fallout. If the Doctor had acted with more thought and care for the consequences, maybe Clara would still be alive.
      But probably not since this was Jenna Coleman's last season anyways...